Yesterday, and still today in some countries was/is my 40th birthday. Instead of celebrating too much, I want to use the time to reflect on a few things. I remember a time, before the public got access to the internet, a time without video games, a time especially without social media. I can’t stop the progress or the evolution, it is a wave you have to ride or you are getting washed out. Most of my life I waited things out, comfort and fear were my biggest enemies. With 35 years I took things into my own hands only to realize that results are not what I am aiming for. The biggest achievements always felt like nothing once I accomplished them, despite the obsession to reach them when I started to pursue them. I can say with a lot of confidence that it is effort what makes me happy. If I have the feeling I gave it all I could no matter the outcome then I feel joy. I am also convinced that it is better to fail fast and learn quickly from my own mistakes to improve, instead of studying something forever just to fail anyways afterwards. There is so much noise in the world and everyone tries to tell you how to live your life and how to accomplish your goals in a specific way. But in the end most of them only repeat phrases they never experienced themselves.
For me life comes down to two pillars only: family and self. Family is your safe haven that protects you from everything else and self is your ability to protect your family. You can add finances, education, career, business, spiritual growth, network, friends, fitness and what you own into the self pillar, and your partner, children and relatives into the family pillar. A couple of years ago I made myself a few goals: getting in shape, finding a partner and starting a family, founding my own businesses. The first I have accomplished, the second I am still working on daily. We live in a time where most people get together by accident, via dating apps and similar things. Instead of testing boundaries early on, the need to be in a relationship is so strong that people act surprised when the relationship turns out to be a big mistake. I am not getting into a relationship by accident, and let’s be real, the goals I have in life require such a strong person on my side, only a handful of women could live up to this. It has to work out mentally, emotionally and passionately. If one of these things is missing, one or both will always start looking somewhere else.
When it comes to business I know esports and gaming is my destiny. The possibility to compete and outsmart others without harming them physically is a great way to test my mental capacity, but also my ability to lead when I work with others. I am not naive, esports organizations are mainly a negative on the balance sheet. This means, I have to reinvent the game; I have to find a solution for something that hasn’t been solved yet. I also have to protect my business from the tidal waves of social media, because relying on the hype of others is no business model, because once a storm is coming, everyone is running and your business stops to exist. I have a couple of ideas and it is time to try and fail all of them to improve quickly to something that is solid and that works out long-term. I don’t care about short-term success, the only thing I care about is to build a foundation so strong that nobody can take anything away from the things I build.
Thanks for your time!