Since my last post in March I started to upload videos on my YouTube channel again. I haven’t deleted anything yet and the videos I am doing now are way different from what I used to do. From sitting in front of my computer talking about video games, I am now walking or sitting outside and talking fullscreen into the camera. This feels great and works much smoother than I thought it would. For the first time I can be authentic and I don’t think about what other people, my viewers, think about me. I am at a point in my life where I simply don’t care anymore.
I know I have to do things in order to get somewhere, to gather experiences, to fail and make it better next time. Overthinking is my enemy number one. I am naturally a deep thinker who likes to get to the bottom of any problem and to see the absolute truth. Creating content is something that can’t be fully thought through, because then I’ll never get anywhere. I have to limit my time, but this doesn’t mean my content is doomed to be garbage. Quite the opposite.
We live in a world where AI is taking over more and more. We also live in a world of fast cutted reels and TikTok videos. Content feels fully digested and leaves no room for imagination. Authenticity jumped out of a plane without a parachute. People don’t communicate anymore, they are sharing reels and posts without any comment. Looking someone in the eyes and having an honest conversation feels unusual rare these days, when 30 years ago it was the most normal thing.
Instead of trying to be perfect, I am telling myself now to just stop overthinking and rather do something totally wrong and learn from it. My imperfections are authentic and whatever I do is useful, as long as it has meaning to me.